Tuesday, December 27, 2011

...And I'm not sorry!!

I'm not living very aloha today.  I let my temper get the best of me earlier today and lashed out on my Facebook.  I deleted 2/3 of my friends, wrote a strongly worded status message, and followed it up by posting exactly 1 "public" item on my profile: a warning to stay out of my business.  I'm not sorry for it.

I'm so sick of people PRETENDING to be my friend and then turning around and betraying my trust.  Either you're here for me, or you're not.  You're on my team, or you're not.  Pick one and stick with it, because from here on out, that's where you are.  No more changing, no more second chances.  If you have a problem with me, talk to ME about it.  I don't even know how many YEARS I've been saying that.  I feel like I'm in freaking high school again!  Only this time, it wasn't me who was fucking up.

It is a well-known adage that misery loves company.  I have come to fully believe it because of what I personally have seen. To those of you who need to hear it:

1.  I'm sorry that you're not happy with your husband, but don't get mad at me for trying to cock-block you that night.  I did it the only way I know how.  Thanks SO much for twisting it around to make ME look like the snake.  I guess I should have just let you fuck up then, seeing as you went and did it anyway after that.

2.  You have a drug problem and need to grow up.  Don't deflect when people are talking to you about why they're concerned; they say it because they love you, and getting defensive and pointing out their own shortcomings isn't a good way to ensure that they're still there for you when you fuck up next time.

3.  Repeat of number two.  The two of you are a real pair.

4.  I'm willing to bet that you've been in a similar situation to the one I'm dealing with now and that's why you act the way you act.  I still don't think that being secretive and blowing people off is polite (or how you should treat your family), but I'm beginning to understand why you do it (especially with your family).

5.  I think you need counseling and anti-depressants.  To start.

That's it.  I'm done for now.  I feel a little less angry but I'm suddenly very tired and very sad.  I'll try to post a more cheerful post-Christmas entry with photos next time.

Wednesday, December 21, 2011

Almost here!

Whoops, it looks like my blog posts are getting more infrequent.  I'll have to do something about that, when I can find more time!

It's almost Christmas, which is exciting.  I love seeing my family and friends, and giving gifts that make them smile.  I wish I had more money to spend on gifts this year, but once again, we're down to just one income, just in time for the holidays.   C and I had talked about this, oh, in JUNE, and made a plan so that we wouldn't be in this situation for another year (3 in a row now) but obviously that hasn't worked out.  Luckily, Christmas isn't just about giving gifts, so those that get small and/or homemade gifts from me won't be upset, but it still bothers ME.

Kawika is almost 8 months old now!  Time really does fly.  He's so strong it's hard to get things away from him if he decides he really wants it.  He always wants to stand, and he'll walk with me while holding my fingers for balance.  He doesn't seem interested in crawling and gets frustrated when placed on his belly.  He immediately rolls to his back to give you a glare, then rolls back to his tummy, and back and forth, until he gets bored and yells, at which time we set him on his feet and he smiles like "Finally!"

Work is fine.  We're entering our slow period and there have been lots of rumors circulating about the future of our company, so that's a little unsettling.  Other than that, though, it's business as usual.  We did have our annual holiday party this past Saturday and it was a blast.  *small pat on own back*  Here are some photos:

Coco and me

Me, C, Coco, and Steve

Me, Coco, and Polly, plus some of our best employees
IMHO, it was the best company party we've had (at least since I've been working here).   =)

Also, what's a blog post without baby updates?  A photo and a video here:

Kawika on Thanksgiving, 7 months old

I think that was the last bath we had in his baby tub... he's too big for it now and tries to climb out, so he's graduated to the big tub, as of 2 weeks ago.  He loves the water and has a blast just splashing and scooting around.  I love that he loves bath time.  Hopefully this trend will continue, because nobody likes a stinky boy.